The Investigator

I am Enneagram Type 5 - An Investigator

What about you?

Something about happiness...:)

"Some cause happiness whereever they go;
others whenever they go."

Oscar Wilde

Jump

You know...it's been a really nice weekend...really...had a nice friday night, watched brokeback mountain, visited old auntie, met up with cousin, bought monster hunter (XD), got me free 3G phone...

Things really feels like it's lifting off again...
All until i started to gunfire at my collegue again. Maybe it is a sign for me to do something about it, to finally leave this damn place...


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Theres only so much you can learn in one place
The more time that I wait, the more time that I waste

I havent got much time to waste
It's time to make my way
I'm not afraid of what i'll face
But I'm afraid to stay

I'm going down my own road and I can make it alone
I'll work and I'll fight till I find a place of my own

Madonna - Jump

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How are you doing?

Ok, enough of sentimental crap and picture posts. It is March, it shall be a new start, a new start to everyone. I had an urge to become aggressive and joyous no matter what starting on the first day.... but having that thought in me mind, i chucked a spaz and got all cranky yesterday. Looking at the bright side of things, i went to the bookshop at lunch, got some dried apricots to cheer myself, got composed again and left work at six thirty sharp. Today...I feel okay, I dressed myself well and have better hair...that is why i am writing now (also thanx to Commentator Boooo who called me a 'lazy pig')... u look and see how long this will last ;)

Last month was a really dim one... emotionally... even though there was nothing bad... (i think i should blurt it all out here) i felt like i'm about to burst in several occasions... and the way i dealt with it is i became really really really...quiet. For some strange reason, i have become extremely agitated by my fellow collegues, the more agitated i was the more quiet i became and to make things much worse, they will comment on how quiet i was, say i was not there, and ask if i would like to train as a budhha and rise to another world of me own. OK.
FUCK(!!!) them.
Very very much.


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Ok...here, i have let it all out here...the reason i felt i should let it out is because i have been reminded of a comment of becoming a bottle of champagne, collecting so much tension (air? pressure?) inside, that unless i let out all the guck i will really burst. I know, it's not worth getting so shitty about these things...but there.

Anyway, the reason for this post is also because i reminded myself of what this blog is really for (to meself i feel)... for some people who know me, to tell them i am still alive and still feeling bad (ha...no, i am okay) even if i don't get to see them often, or don't get to talk on the phone and so on. So, to all the good people reading, how are you doing?


P.S. Is anybody playing Monster Hunter portable? Is it good? I want to play